Held by Resilience

I followed a thread and it turned out to be outside my boundaries. I dropped the thread immediately. My habitual response would be to blame myself for not knowing or for allowing myself to follow the thread so intensely. I stayed with the painful sensations in my belly and my head.

There’s knowing, not knowing and inquiry. We are safest in inquiry and yet I find it the most challenging space to reside in. Knowing isn’t safe because it’s impossible to consistently know, something is always left out. Not knowing isn’t safe because it’s the flipside of knowing. Inquiry is safest because it includes both knowing and not knowing. It allows for possibility and fluidity, which makes it conditional and seemingly unstable.

If we can stay with inquiry and sensations, we cause the least harm to ourselves and others. Having the capacity to be held in this way is to be held by resilience.